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I'm an idiot. I'm in love. I've had these feelings before for someone that didn't belong to me so you'd think it's different this time but it's not. I was at a high point in my life during the first time. I was happy. Everything changed overnight for me. The feeling was still there but I had no connection and I was constantly misunderstood. I went spiraling down into a what seemed to be endless fall and it hurt. I lost all sense of time and direction. I set my heart on someone and she broke it. Needless to say I'm over her. All it took was a war. Now I'm setting myself up in the same way. I feel the same emotions frequently that I should keep to myself. I act childish, jealous and drunk. I do posses a different heart now. It's hard and cold but somehow she manages to melt it effortlessly. I feel helpless when I see her captivating eyes. If I only were so lucky to have her posses me for good. Again this will only be a tease. I have to keep reminding myself this in order to not do anything drastic. Maybe another war is due soon.